My last saved post was going to be about being in a funk that I couldn't put my finger on but I'm over it.
I'm feeling a little better and it's because I realized what I take for granted that helps me through those funks: music, sunlight and socializing.
I was down and out because I stayed indoors to avoid the blazing heat of Philly summers, which caused me to miss the socializing in the summer sun.
I slowly got out of that funk with the help of 'the dude'. He doesn't know my detailed history but he does know about my job, which makes for great conversation. As a matter of fact, he has unknowingly interacted with a participant of my job for so long that he drew a picture of him that is spot on.
The dude and I have been seeing each other for about 5 months and decided to make it official. I was elated when the topic came up (and the fact that he had given it some thought but didn't know how to bring it up) but I was also a little nervous.
Because of my thought patterns, instead of thinking about all the good stuff we can experience, I immediately wen to he end of the relationship. It reminded me of something I heard a work.
A man took his wife for a walk along a huge, beautiful bridge so she can see he city skyline. Instead of her noticing the city lights she turned to him and said, 'I wonder how many people jump off of this bridge each year'.
Given how many good times I've had with the dude I have no real reason to think it's going to turn sour. I dont' want to be pessimistic but I definitely want to be realistic.
I'm going to force myself to not obsess over any little thing that he does that pisses me off, or what could go wrong. I am just going to enjoy the fact that we spend more time laughing than I have with any other person I've dated.
And if it does go sour, at the end of the day he seems to be the first person that I truly think I could be friends with.
I'm feeling a little better and it's because I realized what I take for granted that helps me through those funks: music, sunlight and socializing.
I was down and out because I stayed indoors to avoid the blazing heat of Philly summers, which caused me to miss the socializing in the summer sun.
I slowly got out of that funk with the help of 'the dude'. He doesn't know my detailed history but he does know about my job, which makes for great conversation. As a matter of fact, he has unknowingly interacted with a participant of my job for so long that he drew a picture of him that is spot on.
The dude and I have been seeing each other for about 5 months and decided to make it official. I was elated when the topic came up (and the fact that he had given it some thought but didn't know how to bring it up) but I was also a little nervous.
Because of my thought patterns, instead of thinking about all the good stuff we can experience, I immediately wen to he end of the relationship. It reminded me of something I heard a work.
A man took his wife for a walk along a huge, beautiful bridge so she can see he city skyline. Instead of her noticing the city lights she turned to him and said, 'I wonder how many people jump off of this bridge each year'.
Given how many good times I've had with the dude I have no real reason to think it's going to turn sour. I dont' want to be pessimistic but I definitely want to be realistic.
I'm going to force myself to not obsess over any little thing that he does that pisses me off, or what could go wrong. I am just going to enjoy the fact that we spend more time laughing than I have with any other person I've dated.
And if it does go sour, at the end of the day he seems to be the first person that I truly think I could be friends with.
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