Sunday, August 22, 2010

Butterflies

Tomorrow is my first day on the job as a Certified Peer Specialist. According to wikipedia a CPS, or Peer Support Specialist, is a person who has progressed enough in their own recovery that they are able to assist others in theirs by articulating their goals, assisting them with their treatment and self-help strategies and obtaining effective resources.

As with any new endeavor, I'm excited, anxious, worried, scared, happy, and nervous. As if going through 2 interviews weren't enough, I was recommended for the position by one of the facilitators from the certification program I took that gave the number requirement for the position.

I have the usual amount of butterflies before I start any new job but tonight is a little different because I have a karaoke hosting gig from 10 to 2. Hopefully I'll be able to have just enough drinks to put me to sleep but not allow me to oversleep in the morning.

I have a lot to do tonight to prepare for tomorrow, but I'm hoping that it won't be anywhere near as nerve wrecking as I'm thinking.

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

Happy (Belated) Anniversary!!!

As usual I'm late.

I forgot my own anniversary.

August 1st marked my 2 yr. anniversary with this thing and I totally forgot about it.

Other than being late I'm always making promises that I can't keep. I said I would use this to inform you guys about resources, and if you've been keeping up you see that I haven't done that. But it's okay because in those 2 years I've come to realize my limitations and how I'm a little too ambitious sometimes. The old me would've gotten down on herself for not delivering what was promised but the new knows that sometimes life gets in the way.

I'm still living in a crappy house with an inactive social life and unemployed. BUT this time the house is full of roommates instead of a parent, the social life is just taking a break from a fun-filled summer and the unemployment is the result of lack of work from a previous job. And on top of that I'm gearing up for another year of school.

It may look like I haven't made any progress but I did. And that's what I'm celebrating. So raise your glasses.

To life. It may not be a straight path but it always moves forward.