Drown In My Own Fears

This past weekend was very productive. Not from boredom but necessity. Finals week is approaching and because I work full-time, I had to do most of my homework this past weekend. Saturday was spent doing my research paper. I didn't have any of it started, so I had to research my topic, write an outline, and write a rough draft. I also studied for my art history test on Thursday. Sunday was spent revising my rough draft and studying for an anthropology test that I took today. I also had do some reading for my U.S. history class. Today was spent working until 4:30, then I had to rush to my 5:30 appointment with my history professor to discuss my grades. I asked him if I was a lost cause because I feel like I've been struggling since day one. Thankfully he told me that I wasn't, but I'm still worried.

I have good attendance and get the work done, but I still feel like I'm behind. If I don't make half decent grades on my finals, then my financial aid will be cancelled and I will have to sit out for the spring semester. I worked too hard to get back in school only to be told that I have to stop.

I'm scared that I will fail my finals.

All I can do to prepare for them is to study. Hard.

I can't let this fear get to me, because at the end of the day, the only thing that really matters is that I tried.

Hopefully my grades will reflect that.