Two Down

My day wasn't so good.

I was late again.

I had a few busy tasks to do and when I did one of them wrong, my manager reprimanded me like I was a child.

One of my biggest pet peeves is not what's said but how it's said.

From the day I started her demeanor has rubbed me the wrong way, and the fact that no one has said anything about it makes it worse.

If people are silent then she will think that she can continue to talk to people anyway she wants.

I dont' want to be the one to tell her that she can't, but it might get to that point.

I'm going to try to let it slide, but I don't know how long I'll be able to do that.

*sigh*

Six more weeks. That's all I keep telling myself. Six more weeks, then it'll be over.

Decisions, decisions

As I said in my last week, I got a ride to work but that created a problem.

My rides work shift is later than mine, so I have to work her shift, which means that I'm getting home to late to catch the train and make it to school on time.

Now I have to decide:

Do I make money by getting a ride to work, which means that I will miss class

or

do I decline the ride, and the money from work, and go to class?

Some friends of mine thinks that I should take the job because 'bills come every month and the job will pay for them, and school will always be there'.

For a second I agreed with them, but that made me think about how I've been in this position before, and made the wrong decision.

In the past I would start school, get a good job, then drop out of school, thinking that the job would last. Because of those decisions, I'm back to where I started from: no job and no degree.

I know I need the money, but I don't want to mess up my financial aid, because when the job goes, the aid will be what I'm left with. And, this time around, I am really focused on getting this degree because a high school diploma isn't enough anymore.

*sigh*

I'm going to drop the job and go to class.

With my inability to make the right decisions, I always fear that I'm not doing the right thing. I've thought about this all week and decided that this time around, I need to go to school. I've already let too many years pass by and I don't have time to waste anymore.

I hope I'm making the right decision.

What would you do?

No Words

Minutes after my last post I got a call about a job that started yesterday. I was a little cautious because they called me at 4:45 on Friday to have me start the following Monday, but whatever. I took the job.

Pros: good pay

I'm making more than I was offered from the other positions, and the most I've ever made.

Cons: hours, duration, location

The only shift available was full-time for 8 weeks in the Northeast. I don't particularly like having to be to work at that hour, but I can handle it. I'm not too familiar with the area, and being an evening full-time student is going to be a lot to handle.

I was tempted to turn down the job, but I need work. I can't mooch off of my family any longer. I am just as tired as they are of it.

The sucky part about it all is, of course the SEPTA strike!

As soon as I get a job, I can't get to it.

Or so I thought.

They have offered transportation for me to and from work! At no cost to me!

Admittedly, I was a little bummed about that offer because I have 2 papers to write and 2 tests to study for, but... I'll have to make it work.

I wanted a job, and I got it.

As much as I complain, things seem to work out for me. I'm so used to all the years of confusion and anger and frustration, that when things go right, I immediately look for something wrong.

I can't do that this time around.

I'm going to use the old maternal saying: 'if you can't say something nice, don't say anything at all.'