One Step At A Time

What a day. After everything was done I realized how well I did compared to what I would've done in the past.

I got a part of my disbursement check from school (a very small part) and wanted to cash it because I have been very low on cash, but I had a problem.

My bank account was closed and I had to reapply to open it back up. In order to reopen the account I needed to pay $15 in cash.

I only had the check from school on me, no state issued photo i.d. (but I did have the phot card to have the photo taken), and no cash. I only had about 70 cents in my pocket.

Of course, the easy solutions would be to go to a check cashing joint, but they can't cash checks without a state issued phot i.d., or just wait until tomorrow to get my photo taken at the DMV.

I know this isn't a big problem but when I got home I realized that this situation would've normally sent me in a downward spiral.

I would've been cursing myself for being too stupid to not get the photo i.d. taken when I got the card in the mail, or beaten myself up for thinking that the check cashing places would've made an exception for me.

I didn't do either.

When I got home, I asked my mom for the $15 to reopen the account, and reminded myself that I should be thankful for having a mother to ask for the money.

I know these are small things, butin the past these are exactly the type of things that would've gotten me so upset to the point of taking them out on someone else.

I'm proud of myself for making progess, and even more proud that I am actually able to see the progress.

I know it's a small step, but every step takes time.

I got over this one, and now I feel like I'm ready to take on the next one.