I've been having a burst of creative energy lately. I don't know if it's because I'm actually taking part in the world around me, if it's because I've grown tired of not moving, or if it's the meds. it's most likely a combo of all three.
Being a student again has really lifted my spirits. I'm not only forced to get out of the house, but I'm doing something that is beneficial to me, which will, in turn, be beneficial to those around me.
Having been, what I feel like, immobile for so many months has given me motivation to not fall into the easy trap of depression. Since I know how I'll feel when I'm not productive, I now do what I can to stay as productive as possible.
The meds have definitely leveled me out. I'm not as aggressive or short tempered as I was pre-meds. I'm also not as paranoid and anxious either.
The part that worries me now is that I'll get too happy. That's the scary part for me in dealing with my bipolar disorder. I know when I'm happy but I have a hard time figuring out when I'm too happy. And even when I do finally figure it out, it's too late. But I'm going to try my best not to worry about that now.
I'm going to take it one day at a time and think about what I need to do everyday to stay in a healthy happy state.
1) take my proper dose of meds
2) study schoolwork
3) go to bed at a decent hour
So, for tonight, the meds were already taken and the studying was done earlier, so that leaves me with sleep. I'm going to get at least 6 hours of sleep so that I can be fresh in the morning and do it all over again.
It feels good to finally take care of myself.
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