Another One Bites the Dust

After only taking Geodon for about a week, I've decided to stop taking it.

I noticed that I was restless and more anxious on it than off.

I'm not going to go without meds but instead go back to Zyprexa. I never had any problems with it treating my illness, it was that I was sleeping too much. I guess the logical solution to that is to take them early enough so that I'm not groggy in the morning.

I also think I'm just going to stick with Zyprexa. I'm figuring that my body will adjust to the sleeping. If not, I guess I'll get back on the horse and try something else.

Back to Square One

Today I had a 1 o'clock appointment with my therapist which was purposely made for this time and day to coincide with a 2:45 appointment with my doctor.

I struggled to get out of bed and forced myself to go to the therapists appointment , only to find a note on her door reading:

'I am not seeing patients Tuesday or Wednesday'

WTF?!!

I was looking forward to this appointment because we were going to try art therapy, which Ive never done. Instead I had to wait in my doctor office for over 2 hours (he's never on time) with about 20 other patients that were pushed back or rescheduled because of the holiday.

I finally saw the doc and we decided to try yet another drug, Geodon. I trust his knowledge but when I looked up the drug, I grew hesitant.

Side effects:

severe chest pains
dizzy spells
insomnia
restlessness
weight loss
involuntary movement

A few years back I wouldn't have been so cautious, but after my trail and error of numerous drugs, I've found that I am in that small percentage of people who experience the worst batch of side effects.

At this point I have nothing to lose with trying another drug, Well, that's not entirely true. I have my sanity to lose, but with the way things have been going so far, it isn't that much.

Tonight I'm going to skip the dose of Zyprexa so that I can take the Geodon tomorrow. Hopefully all will go well. If not, I always have Big Z to fall back on.

Back to Square One

After taking Seroquel for about a week, I've decided to go back to Zyprexa. I don't like that it causes me to sleep for 12 hours or causes a strong sweet tooth that leads to extreme weight gain, but at least my mood was better. The Seroquel seemed to worsen my mood and had me thinking about suicide more than I did when I was drug-free.

I haven't talked this over with my doctor (who I'm seeing on the 21st) but I'm sure he won't protest to me making a sensible decision. I might try something new, but until then, sweet dreams.

Where Do I Start?

Serequel hasn't really been working for me. It works great as a sleep aid, but not for my moods. I see my doctor on the 21st, so I'm thinking about trying something new.

Work will be coming to an end in 2 wks. My sister will be back from maternity leave. On one hand I'm looking forward toit, but on the other hand, I'm not looking forward to being unemployed again.

Socially I've been in a funk. Don't really have any friends to hang out with or talk to. This predicament isn't entirely new to me, but I'm sick of dealing with it.

Ho Hum.