The Sandman Doesn't Like Me

Had an okay day. Feeling a little tired now, but that shouldn't be too surprising since I got about 4 hours of sleep last night. Since I have trouble falling asleep, I was prescribed 100 mg. of Trazodone. I was taking that provincially but after a few doses, it didn't work, so I bumped it up to 200. The only thing it helped was stomach pain. I had very bad cramps for about 3 hours, accompanied with a fever and chills. I decided to go with Tylenol PM's and they seemed to have been working until last night. I took 2 around 9 p.m. but didn't get to sleep until about 4 a.m. My mind was racing. My body was tired where I just wanted to lie down but my mind was wide awake. I tried to think of something soothing, like the heavens, but that just caused anxiety because I have a fear of heights. I thought about being in elementary school when I had no worries, but that lead me to thinking about my best friend in 6th grade who dumped me for cooler friends in 7th grade. I relax my body from head to toe but that lead me to thinking about how I neglect personal hygiene. I couldn't win last night. I don't even know how I did it, but I remember seeing that it was 4, then hearing my alarm at 8. Tonight I'm just going to have a cup of tea, put on some soothing music and force myself to not think about anything. Easier said than done, but I'm going to force myself to do it tonight.