Heaven Help Me

I've been having so much fun hanging out with my friend that I've lapsed on taking my meds. Well, I'm not going to put the blame on him because he is supportive so I made the decision not to take them everyday. I know better but than to do that but sometimes I just want to see if I really need them and this weekend I have. I'm nowhere near as depressed as I was before I started taking them but I'm not myself. The absence of the meds aren't the only factor to my mood though. It has a lot to do with my work and my social life, or lack of. I'm not going to do anymore experiments like this again but instead work on myself. I need to get out there and make some kind contribution to society before its too late. Don't know what that contribution will be but I'll think of something.