The other night I went bowling at Stikes in University City. Driving to and through West Philly was completely new to me. I haven't been to the area in quite a while, and going to a new place was a little scary. The scary part was all the bike riders. I have a little animosity toward bike riders. I've never had a bad experience with one in particular, but it's all about their sense of entitlement of the road. It freaked me out when while driving down a street, I came across 4 different bikers!!! And none of them had lights!!! I am a cautious and respectful driver, so I tried to make sure they had enough room to ride and that I had some as well. Everything went fine and I got to my destination without incident but the scariest part was what I realized after I got out of my car; I miss college.
The first and second time in college was very hard for me because I had trouble dealing with the social scene. Not just the time spent out of class but also the class itself. I felt all alone, and at the time I was undiagnosed so I had no idea what was going on with. I also come from a prideful family, so I was unaware of the resources that were available. I dropped out, both times, and was determined to make a living at home. I was poor in school and felt that I could go home and make a living. Well, 10 years later, I'm still making a living and I am also still poor. Seeing all those students made me realize how much I miss college. I miss the hustle and bustle to class, the weekend parties, and most of all the reward of hard work with good grades.
At first glance I may seem a little silly and lazy, but deep down I'm just a little disappointed in myself for not sticking college the first few times. So, now I've made a pact with myself that I will pay my student loans for 9 months (which is the suckiest part about my college experience-I didnt't get a degree and I still have debt) then return to school with a bang. By being in the real world for the last 10 years I know that no matter who you know, it's still about what you know.
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